No rest for the wicked

I don't know if it's a good or bad thing but I can't sleep. There are times when I push myself to progress for the wckd and I feel sleepy. But the moment I get on my bed my eyes wide awake.

Is this a blessing in disguise? I mean I can use the time to do more progress (and I probably should). But I can't do progress all the time. Gotta put some time to rest and recuperate.

Often times when my mind goes idle, it wanders back to the past, bringing me rage and hatred. But again, it makes me sleepy. That's a weird combination. In terms of sleeping patterns, I am still struggling...and confused. Am I just can't have the so-called normal sleeping pattern, or am I just built differently?

Now I'm sleepy thinking about it...

This is confusing. And makes me hungry...eugh...so confusing.